I’m very sad. I try so hard in so many things and in the end I always end up feeling like I’m nothing. I try to make other people feel better and it either backfires or it works and they forget me as soon as they don’t need me. I’m tired of “friends” saying how much they love me, but can’t even find the time to hang out with me or even text me back. It isn’t like they don’t have time. I go to school and put on one hell of a face. You would never be able to tell anything is wrong with me. All social media accounts are clean with nothing indicating a problem. My grades are high. Looking at me, you’d never be able to tell. I’m definitely not an “emo” kid. I just don’t find that kind of style appealing. But on the inside I’m screaming and I just want someone to just give a s***. I want someone to talk to me or ask me to hang out instead of it always being the other way around. I just want a text back or a phone call. I want someone to tell me they love me on more than just my birthday. No one ever does though. I don’t want to hear my ex boyfriend, who just decided to talk to me again after 6 months of dead silence, say that I deserve a good person because I’m a good person. I want to be okay with being by myself. I want to be okay with just having a cat for company but I’m not. I’m very lonely and sad and I just want someone to care. It isn’t “I want attention”…it’s just that I want a friend..a real friend. I don’t want to have to beg for someone to talk to me. I don’t want to only hear from them when I make the first approach. I just…want someone to care.