I am married, for 11 years, love to crossdress. My wife does not know. I can barely get it up for her, or even women in p***, but get so hard thinking about men and being a submissive girl to please a dominant, muscular man with a nice large erection (for me to pleasure). I really love to look at pictures of s*** men and imagine myself pleasing them.

Over the past 4 years I’ve cheated like 5 times. Every time the s** (with men) was amazing. I’d keep it up, last forever, etc. etc..

Am I gay? Should I leave my wife and pursue a situation where I can dress up and express this s******** with men? Or should I try to make things work with my wife?

What do you all think?