I have been trying to get myself a girlfriend for years… and well I got one, but since I was very desperate I settled… a lot…. she isn’t good looking, she isn’t smart, she has barely any money and no education, the only thing that drove me into it and keeps me in this is that I tried my best and I couldn’t get a better fish.
I am upset about it, I am funny I am smart I am not at all modest, I got lots of money due to having a high paying job, I got a good profession with high demand and a good education, I live on my own, I got my own car, I got 6 digits in the bank, I can’t possibly be too ugly I think… or well at least I don’t see how ugly I am, guess others do as otherwise I can’t explain this…

But having all that in mind I can’t help but think that there’s just gotta be someone better suited for me out there.
It’s just that 26 years without any girlfriend but this one made me think there might not be…
I don’t know what to do or what I want to do…
I mean I kind of enjoy making her laugh a lot and I enjoy having someone to care about but eh… that’s not exactly a unique quality she has going now is it?

But then if I do break up with her and I just go back to having no one ever… how is that benefiting me in any way?