There is a girl I want to be friends with so badly although I’m often annoyed by her but I admire her so much and litterally am like a f****** puppy. I’m 20 years old, she’s 16 and I really should be more grown up especially because she inspired me to my first suicide attempt but I can’t stop talking to her, I wanna be important to her
I am so pathetic it makes me want to cut myself all over my body. What the f*** is wrong with me.