This confession is slightly guilt, wasnt sure exactly where to put it. I do feel somewhat guilty about the fact that I dont feel guilty about the act itself.

Wednesday I had s***** relations with a married man, that in itself is enough to have some guilt over, but behind that, this man was someone that I had dated for many years and we broke up over some issues, eventually he got married and we hadnt spoke for several years. I got back to talking with him a week ago and we decided to meet up, which led to the shagging.

I do plan on doing it again, and again, until his wife either puts an end to it or he leaves her. I dont have any delusions that this will end in my favor but, its convenient and with the history we have, its extremely easy.

The only guilt that I actually have on the act itself is that at the time I didnt know that his wife has MS. Ive known his wife since middle school, and have disliked her since then, so before finding out about the MS I didnt feel bad for her at all, now…I feel slightly bad about it.

Where I mostly feel bad is my willingness to continue this, everything that I have been brought up to know as right or wrong tells me that what I am doing is unforgiveable, but it doesnt stop me.