I’m sitting here, having started my job a week ago and I want to call in sick. I mean, I am actually sick but why do I actively sabotage things in my life? I’m sat here, knowing there’s something wrong with me but I’m not able to ask for help, because I don’t know why.

I feel so ill today, and so tired that I don’t think it’d be so bad to just fall asleep right now and not wake up.

I think there’s something wrong with me.