I am in a huge mess.
I owe money left, right and centre
I don’t have a stable job – I’ve been looking for one for too long
My dad jus died after a 2 year battle with cancer some 3 weeks ago
I fell in love with my best friend a long the way and now I’ve chased her away with my over sensitivity and blowing things out of proportion
I’ve resorted to looking men up on craigslist and find myself sleeping with too many too regular
I have nothing but a lap top, a phone and a few friends with whom I can still keep up my pretense
I’ve a long history with anxiety
I do not think seeing a counsellor will help – its never helped because I am not severely depressed, I am just messed up
I suspect I either have bi-polar or some kind of personality disorder
My life is just one huge excuse for living
and I am lost.