I have cancer and am not going to get any sort of treatment. So my mom has decided to let me live it up. I’m 16 years old and going to my first house party on Halloween. Going to do crazy s***… I want to be happy. But where the f*** does that get me? I’m going to leave this world with memories of drunken stupidity and drugs?……….. There are soo many things I want to do in life. I want to help people. I don’t want to leave my other half. I want to protect my sisters. I want to get a career in law enforcement. But yet I am going to waste away my days with friends and wild things. It’s not exactly wasting, because I’ve always enjoyed things like that, I just see how truly shallow I was. How shallow my friends are. How shallow this world is……. It’s sad that death has opened my eyes to this all. No one will probably read this, but please cherish your life and make the best of it. Wild stuff won’t matter in the end. Popularity, people liking you, none of it. You have a future. Live your life for that. I wish everyone the best in life. ~Lilly~