am I weird as a 42 year old woman wanting affection. I keep asking for love and can’t get it. I long to be hugged for so. when I asked for a romantic relationship 20 years ago I got raped and hated it , which is not want I wanted. I have been looking places then told “I should put my life on hold til my mental health over r*** or violence as a kid” but the more I am putting everything on hold to get mentally better I am getting sicker and more mentally unwell. for the past 17 years I have been told not to seek love but am I strange for wanting a marriage or love and normal relationship and love? is there anymore normal people out there?