I hate myself for loving a woman i learned will never love me, i was used and left when i wasbt needed, thats nothing new, but i hate myself for being so stupid and naive being so optimistic about it, i probably looked like the happiest idiot in the world and i felt like it to, cause ignorance is most definitely bliss, i know shes happy else where doing…. what she does, and im killing my sanity with what ifs and i hopes, but delusions and fairy tales alike, never come true. I guess the life lesson ive endured painfully to understand is the prey struggle to live in a torturous world, whilst predators feed on the pain leisurely without morality