Everyone I’ve ever been with I have never loved. No matter how long we were together or what similarities we share I always end up lying with every “I love you” I mutter. I’m a horrible person who hurts everyone. I try to force myself to be in love but end up cheating because of the thrill and adrenaline rush of the situation I could get caught for. Its turned more into a fetish every time it happens. How do you fall in love with someone? I never seem able to figure it out.