i feel so guilty about how i handle situations. i doubt myself on whether i really want to do something, and then decide that since i had already put in so much effort along the way, that i might as well do it. then at the latest moment possible i decide i cant do it and call everything and everyone off no matter how much they had invested in me. i can feel the annoyance from everyone and myself and then i start to feel really guilty. the only reason why i couldn’t decide in the first place was due to my lack of incompetence, and now i would disappoint a lot of people no matter what i do.