I’m only 19 and a few months ago I was officially diagnosed with high functioning autism. I’m too embarrassed to tell anyone but my closest friends that I am because I’m afraid I will be looked down on by society, or told I’m making it up. I don’t have a job, applied everywhere but couldn’t find one. I live in my boyfriends house with his sister and mom and dad but I feel unwelcome. I sleep in a room that’s a glorified closet, and my severe stomach pain means I can’t even sleep there but instead have to sleep on the couch because I can plug in the heating pad which is my only relief because my medication isn’t working and I can’t afford more. I need to get out of here but I know if I leave my boyfriend I’ll have no one to help me with my disability and I love him and if it weren’t for him I’d probably have committed suicide by now