I had this history teacher when i was 14, that always had a particular interest in me. Not s*******, but he always wanted to me to do better and pushed me to work harder, but was always a bit weird. he always acted like he was my guardian, and trying to save me “from myself”. I’ve always been a troubled girl (i come from an abusive family) and used to get into trouble, so he was always there for me.
Anyway, i left school years later, but then again he taught me at college at the age of 20, and was still acting the same way with me. But he began to actually act on it. He would tell me how beautiful I am, and invited me to coffees and dinner etc.
One night he invited me to sleep at his place, and I went, knowing that i had lied to my parents. He liked that, he said he like “the wild part in me” and that it reminded him of his teenage years.
Nothing happened that night, we sat drinking tea and talking about my life. He would take my hand and tell me he’d always be here for me.
But you seen, he always looked at me in a perverted way, since i was a kid in school. I know he wants to sleep with, even with our 30 years of age difference.
But that makes me attracted to him, this dark side in him, the fact that i know he’d hurt me a lot, that’s what makes me want him.
But i’m scared to act upon it, causing him troubles, but sometimes i fantasise about him…