I am feeling hopeless.
I am a 26 years old virgin, worse than virgin, a virgin who never kissed.
My only relationships have been long distance, the latest of which ended when I was 19 I think at most…
During those, as an introvert and a complete nerd with fear of meeting people I rejected said girls offers to meet up with me, and I realize of course this wasn’t very bright.

Since then a lot of happened in my life and I found new friends compared to the none I had between the age of 12 and 21 or so, I got my degree, I have a job for a few years now, I got my own car, I even went out to the world and I am renting my own place without any partners.

I might not be extrovert by any stretch but I am hoping I am climbing some sort of ‘bettering myself’ tree here.

Which brings me to what I started with, for the last 2 years with all of what I achieved boosting my confidence, I have been relentlessly trying to get a girl to date me ONCE.
ONCE, I am not asking much here, just someone who would give me a chance.
I have tried finding someone at work, tried at a bar once or twice but honestly I am mostly still too shy on that and I tried very very delicately through dating sites.

Now my biggest achievements if one would call them that were on those dating sites, I managed to draw interest for some girls but I somehow never got anyone to date me.

There was even that girl whom I talked to for a few days very intensively since she broke up with her boyfriend and I was more than willing to be her mental support but after dragging it as much as she could she just went ahead and told me she is simply not attracted to me.
How crushing… I mean really she gave me her phone number, we talked on whatsapp with voices, she told me my voice is s*** she enjoyed those conversations but.. no sir no date with you, just playing here, thanks for the fish.

I tried changing my cloths after that… because I was told the cloths make the man after all but well according to said dating sites and that silly mybestface (okcupid app thing) I actually just look uglier the fancier I go.
Awkward.

Now what’s worse is that I try my best to talk to girls with whom I share a lot of hobbies and like I said … some of them, not most, not even a lot , some of them, talk back and I can easily sense they like it when we talk but … nothing.

It gets a little worse, there was that girl to whom I just started talking and she didn’t look at my profile to see my picture and we went on for hours and she was super excited and demanded a date and I agreed happily and we set a time and a place and I was in 7th heaven and gave her my number and… she finally visited my profile and wham the next day she deleted her account.

I look in the mirror and well I am not brad pitt, but I am also not the lord of the pit, I believe I am an average looking guy, I am white (sorry it’s racist but… you know.. white guys get more attention usually), I am very tall (almost 1.9m), I have a good job and education, I make a good amount of money, I am a very nice person, I don’t know what to do…
And like I said, I tried changing my wardrobe to other styles with even lesser success on ‘reply rate’ let’s say.

I am at the age where if I mention I dare mention I am a virgin, let alone that I was never kissed, girls would freak out, and I am not getting younger.
I am scared at this rate I’ll be alone my entire life.
I have seen uglier guys getting girls, I have friends who at least I feel are uglier than me, make less money, are shorter, are fatter, they get girlfriends no problem.

I must be doing something wrong but I don’t know what anymore, I tried everything I could think of…
And what’s worse is that as you know most first dates don’t start relationships, I feel like I am playing this super easy game everyone is playing and I just lose on the menu somehow, never getting to play level 1, I am a joke.