I feel empty inside, like a hole that cannot be filled.
I loved her and i threw my dream in the toilet because i did cocaine.
She left me and my world is falling apart peice by peice. Ill never find another because ive tried and i didnt love her not like Karen.. i didnt care and i still do drugs and drink. my best friends moving out of state and im stuck with the guy thats bipolar.. my family always tries to break me down every false step i make i never hear the end. Its really unfair treatment considering my sisters always take and recieve handouts. Although for the most part ive contributed most my time and dedication towards my parents ill never be the favorite or the best, simply the blacksheep. Im so lost i cant find myself im tired of the repetition. I just want to end my life, i want to plant a bullet in my brain but i dont think i deserve to go that fast i deserve something slow,