Many mornings i sit on my front porch with coffee and a cigarette as a relaxing way to watch the world wake up. This morning i was doing so with the residual taste of the male runner i orally please (usually weekly but sometimes more frequently) still clinging in my throat. An older couple was on ther morning walk today, i see them occasionally. She was the usual casual wave and good morning but he did not even glance my direction. She called him out on it and told him to at least say good morning, and they were on their way again. As they walked away he turned and looked back at me with an uncertain ezpression on hia face I hope she did not give him grief later, because i know why he was acting awkwardly. About six weeks ago he made his first visit to my back yard shed to take his own pleasure in my mouth. It was actually emotional for him because he had not gotten any relief in a very long time. I told him he was welcome any time. But like many older married men he was truly suffering the guilt and shame of taking his pleasure in a man’s mouth and for being unfaithful to his wife. But naturally after getting the incredible pleasure i gave him as i reverently worshipped his hard hungry male flesh…he told me during and after that he had no idea such pleasure existed…his guilt and remorse and shame got to him and after a couole of weeks i assumed he would never return. But sure enough, i eventually saw him on a morning solo walk and he came up to me unable to even speak or ask, and i simply had him follow me to my back yard shed and without speaking i gave him what he needed again. And of course afterwards despite his enjoyment in the moment, he was in tears again and said he could never do this again. But a week later, he was back for more. Then again a few days after that This is where we are at as i saw him on his walk with his wife this morning. I have sincere empathy for his inner crisis, and he kmows if he comes back for more he will get it time and again. I know it sounds arrogant but i know eventually he will come back again and again. Not because i am conceited but because i simply know men and the type of man that seeks what i give them on my knees. He will come back because they all do eventually this is simply how some men get what they need and i enjoy giving it to them for a host of reasons…..from the diary of a closet neighborhood cocksucker
They say with murder there’s no excuse. When it comes to serious mental illness where the person is going through psychosis doesn’t know what they’re doing. STOP CRIMINALIZING the mentally ill, STOP PUTTING them to DEATH and the government needs TO STEP THE F*CK UP AND OPEN THESE MENTAL HEALTH FACILITIES. DO MORE RESEARCH, STOP SAYING THEY KNOW WHAT THEY ARE DOING when THEY F*CKING DON’T!!! THEY ARE ILL, NOT CRIMINALS. SO IF A MENTALLY ILL PERSON Murders IT’S THE GOVERNMENTS D*MN FAULT. A schizophrenic often doesn’t think anything is wrong so they don’t take their medication. GUESS WHAT??? THAT’S NOT THEIR FAULT EITHER!!! Now when will there be ANYTHING AT ALL TO CONVINCE THEM TO TAKE MEDICINE?? Forcing treatment is illegal BUT MAKE AN EXCEPTION FOR SEVERE MENTAL ILLNESS.
I m********* thinking about n*** pics of my mom also i fantasize about her s******* using me as a boy
im cheating on my bf im pretty sure he knows. and one of the dudes i was cheating with his gf caught him
Fat fat fat blah blah blah
I went a did a delivery to the best friend of the father of an ex friend of mine, a girl from years and years ago. Decades. I don’t think he knows about us.
I dropped the stuff off and he says “you’re a good man, ****….”
Tag. We closed our story and each went in a different direction but tell me why for 2 years now I keep thinking: will we ever meet again? What will happen if we meet? How will meet? Will we ignore each other or acknowledge? Will I understand my feelings better...
It’s probably because they are fat. That’s why you can’t see them and only hear them.
That’s a rule of thumb. If it sounds fat, it probably is fat.
Let’s have a slip and slide party. I will bring the Crisco. Or do you prefer Canola oil?
I have no sympathy for you being put in restraints in the hospital. It was for your own good. There are rules to be obeyed. You were probably combative. You have unfounded complaints about your RN nurse and CNA Certified Nursing Assistant. For procedures and safety they needed total access...
That’s sweet. I can imagine that.
Damn that tarot reader awakening to spirit was right, i shouldve left the group when she said it
Yeah i can relate to that. When i read something horrifying i feel the urge to share it.
I don’t want to force someone. I’m tired of begging. So even it hurts, I let it go :<
i hate my father i wish he were dead he is a burden to our family. he is a narcissistic, selfish, man child who is lazy and absolutely irresponsible. he is the definition of the lazy, misogynistic indian husband, except surprise surprise he is not indian. oh how i hate...
yeah i was responding to the thing you said before that. ive been on it already
Don’t worry about me. I’ll be fine as always. Fix yourself.
Seek help. I don’t know what the f***, therapy (retarded) or some kind of self help whatever that is, a hobby, drugs, a job, whatever but seek help.
And shut up while you’re at it.
It’s been a long time since we’ve talked to each other. I can’t lie, I miss him. Every single time I play the playlist he made for me, tears will come streaming in my face. It’s so hard to let him go, he played with my feelings so well and...
Why even mention that gay b**** n*****?
It’s a f*****.
I dont think any bad type of way about you. Im just confused on what you want.
Count your blessings
I really need to get over you soon. Fast. Youre consuming my life.
Stay in your own lane and stop checking on me
Its ok. I didnt think i was special to you or anything. And i didnt share much about myself. Im really sorry that i did this to you. Ill stay out of your life then.
obsessive suicidal “love”….
Ill never stop loving you even though youre putting me through mental hell and torment.
I am not home . Im sleeping in a 5 bedroom house . I hate it here. I can’t sleep. Sleep deprevation affects me. I go home in 2 days . thank God. Ill be able to Finally sleep.
300 sugar levels ..cause my moods and mind to fly. I know better. I really am addicted to sugar. I know better . sorry if I caused you to be confused.
I let high sugars truly affect my mind. I know better . but I failed myself . I need to get back to sane life.
If you want out ? Its ok. I understand. Thanks for trying . your free now.
At least the schizophrenia has gone .
Its not easy. But bipolar can be managed. If you know how to handle it .
The bipolar can be managed . just needs a steady dose of right foods and exercise. Please hold on.
Hey 8 star general? U out there ? Just wanted to see if your here
The b******* false hope pep talk I give myself that everything is going to be okay when im clearly not okay needs to stop. Im just pushing the pain and heartache deeper and deeper down.
I think you are human. Maybe you have a lot of shame, i do too. I know life is hard. I dont like you being hard on yourself. Be hard on me, fine, i can use it, not enough people are. Im sure life has been hard on you. I...
I was confused by the overall dynamic and what respect i was supposed to show? I do not think you are garbage at all i always thought you were sweet, but i had a hard time understanding you or talking to you in a way that would convey respect. Maybe...
Thats fine. I was somewhat confused what it was and what we were meant to do, i constantly felt i didnt belong and felt like i was intruding in some way. But it meant a lot to me. I know i was stupid and trash a lot of the time....
I try to avoid god but I try to learn more about God. The little “g” god is Satan, Lucifer, Moloch. There’s more than one god. When someone says god helped them, I ask which god? Currently Klaus Schwab has declared God is DEAD and Jesus is the original...
One last question, please answer honestly. “Is it wrong to believe in god? To have a moral compass” Im open to listening to you . I guess I believe in vows. A vow to God is eternal . what is your thoughts?
Yvonne Kocik
No woman wakes up and says “hey lets be a w****” no little girl thinks of it. she is someones daughter Nor does guys dream of p*** at age 5 or 6 they wanted to be hero’s , star wars . etc. Han solo. Luke Skywalker .
Ok, i read what you wrote. And i want to be honest in what im saying and not come off/be disingenuous. But i also dont want to judge myself by someone elses standard or perception. I know i have feelings. I dont know if you saw anything i cant explain,...
