Im straight, might be bi. I have or@l buddy. We do 68+1 and consume the load.
i injected ketamine into my right deltoid and realized i had no water to drink. by the time i was in the kitchen i was dissociated as hell trying to remind myself im a person in a kitchen trying to get ice cubes and filtered water into my tumbler
it hit much much harder than it did when i tried it in my vastus lateralis. i injected nearly 80mg which is over 1mg/kg for me. im still feeling it a little. apparently the comedown is longer than IV but way less than IN. its 3am now and i have some powder and some sterile solution left in the vial to inject into my vein. ive been trying to get the out of body ketamine experience during my trips but still havent gotten there during my last few for a while now even with needles involved. i was a little closer tonight though, without overwhelming my system or anesthetizing myself
i usually take it once every few months or so. i take medication with a needle every week so im used to them but not used to plunging the bigger thicker ones down deep into my muscle like that. the painful pressure feeling is hard to get used to. and the deep ache that lingers for a few days. i got a little sweaty and lightheaded seeing and feeling an inch of stainless steel sink into my body. there’s that animal instinct part of me that doesn’t want to shove metal into myself and cringes at what im doing but another part too that finds fascination in the sensation and resistance to the needle in the different layers of tissue.
i’ve found it fun and interesting to experiment with all the ways of administering this drug and learning more about my body along the way. exactly where the arteries run down my arms or where major nerves might be hiding.
i dont really have something to finish this off with. it was fun, painful, and interesting. the comedown for IM seems to be 2-3 hours long so far. i stayed up very late to do this. i may augment with nitrous next time.
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I allowed my best friend to stay with me rent-free for 3 months. I drove her to and from work. I bought her clothes for work because she had no money. I paid for her food. She promised she would start paying rent & electricity and now just left to...
Text me please. One text, just one text..
Past generations made America. Past generations made great inventions. Past generations made great music. This generation makes nothing.
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I am so mf beyond fed up. I can barely eat I can’t go to work without cryinf in the bathroom I can’t shower without crying I can’t sleep without crying I can’t go out with friends before having a breakdown everything dckn hurts and you are so Fckn okay....
Feeling so numb. Always battling thoughts around self-harm & suicide.
今日生き残ったら、神様に感謝します。
もし私が今日死ぬなら、私は神に感謝します。
私の魂は疲れています。
生きる力が弱まっている
しかし、私は手が滑るのを待つよりも、むしろ手放したいのです。
そのために、私は申し訳なく思っています。
家族を守れ、友人を守れ。
私が忘れられることを願っています。だから、彼らの涙を私に無駄にさせないようにしてください。
When you don’t have to turn off notifications because no one checks in unless you do 🙂
I’m kinda sick of him posting the heather he got after me. Like just flaunting her name in his username and s***. Like damn ok we get it you found someone skinnier and prettier. And now i’m here still wishing the best for him :/.
respond to me i know you are on your goddamn phone
If you’re tired of not being able to move on then just do it.
I’m tired of being unable to move on.
I don’t believe you and I can’t believe you each time you leave becwuse the outcome is the same. You don’t care I swear you don’t care about any of this or how I’m affected or what I want. You don’t even think about me or reconsider anything or maybe...
I’m sorry for how you feel and I wish I can do more than what I’m doing but I can’t. I hope you know I’m hurt just as much as you are. Take care of yourself. -B
Why do you never text me, like you havent texted me first once. I also dont want to say this but im obiously too good for you, like why do i even like you? Like mf, your taste in music is literally s***, i used to listen to that type...
Wish I had the guts to take my life.
Text me, pls…..
If I don’t lose 100 lbs this year I’m gonna blow my brains out. Even if I do I still might. My social life is ruined and I can never recover. With this said I still loved you “x” and I’m sad I could never say that to you.
I miss you so much today it’s been so hard I just wanna tell you all about my days and olay snapchat games with you or even fortnite. I’m so sad I just wanted a hug today I just wanted a text from you I just want anyrhinf rjat has...
Should little girls have their c******* cut out? Should big girls have their c******* cut out?
She killed them in a most gruesome way.
even a small text from you gives me serotonin, yet you wont text me back, this is s*****… is it my fault that you wont text me? do you just not like me? would you rather talk to other people? i know its not in my place to get jealous,...
Gosh for what reason do I like him, he doesn’t set aside the effort to respond nor start up discussions. I have songs associated with him, yet he doesn’t have a clue. He takes hours and days to respond, yet I require nothing but a second. I have the ability...
From the bottom of my heart I’m so sorry about what’s going on in your country right now I know this must affect you deeply because i know how thjs always made you angry. It makes me angry. Your country is protected by Allah and I know you know that....
Why does she say she loves me but when I asked her she said she doesn’t. we are best friends but she is slowly starting to become distant, ignoring me, leaving me out of things. I feel guilty for no reason at all, I am always nice even if it...
Why haven’t u said a word to me I don’t get it I genuinely do not understand. This isn’t worth it none of this is worth it why eont u treat me the same as I treat you. I hate it. I just want a text I just wanna see...
I don’t care I don’t care I DON’T CARE I DON’T CARE! Jesus Christ you solipsistic hag! I don’t give a flying f*** what you have to say! Leave me alone you old b****! I don’t want to hear from you, I don’t want to hear your delusions I don’t...
I do only work in my workplace part-time. The other two fulltime co workers like to recommend series on netflix to me and each other, they watch the recommendations they give each other, but they never even try to watch what i recommend. It hurts.
I cant be in public anymore. Seeing all the couples, cute guys i can never have, friends hanging out laughing with eachother….all things I dont have. It makes me too depressed. Its too much for me to bear….im just gonna stay locked away forever.
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BREED THAT BACKSNATCH!
– CORVALLUS POPEIL
My country is going through a crisis. I’m financially struggling and it feels like there is no way out. Too scared to commit suicide yet too hard to continue living.
I never came back to that house anymore
Why don’t you care why don’t you love me this much that you would fight for me why won’t you do what I would do for you. You don’t feel how I thought you felt about me or you would’ve been back for me. You would’ve been back to do...
my female cat Mau is missing since a week. i saw her in my dreams. God please help her. ease her pain, show the way back to us. keep her safe and healthy. forgive me if i have done anything wrong. God Bless Mau
TO: i promised myself it would only happen once. one cut just to see what it feels like. i’m 7 scratches in, two days later. i don’t want it to get worse.
REPLY: A few scratches is not really cutting.
Arron thanks for the $600 in Ethereum and the PAR Tokens. I really don’t like hacking wallets but I needed the cash. I’ve got gambling debts. If I don’t pay, I could get hurt. I’d be the one getting a million slaps to the head.
I feel bad about...
i promised myself it would only happen once. one cut just to see what it feels like. i’m 7 scratches in, two days later. i don’t want it to get worse.
I don’t deserve to be alive. Wish I had the guts to end it all.
