I’m a middle aged guy who loves to wear women’s clothing in full makeup and wigs. I’m fairly close to passable – probably not quite there. Part of me does this as stress-release and expression while another part loves the kinkiness out of it. The longer I’ve done it, the deeper I go into crazy desires. I had a buttplug DoorDash’ed to me and I ordered a d**** to practice giving oral on. When I am done and back to regular guy mode, it’s like I’m instantly back to a straight male mentality with a little bit of regret, but I feel it’s only a matter of time before I engage in full-on g******. I fantasize about it a lot.