i was fully convinced in my mind that my relatives would care about me this year with my a*** and peri menopausal issues and other issues that every time I do a poo I get period blood an hour later for the last few weeks, drainging me, and xmas day, i made pavlova with fruits and no one thanked me. we had relatives salad and I told her the wine was lovely with the pavlova, and thanks, delightful. and my mum made a apple and blue vien nut salad and baked meats . no one ever likes me. I got 1 xmas present while I give every one a few but I gave up this year now past. I had my birthday and wollowed in self pity and anger. no one cared to come and check to see how was with my health issues . no friends since 2013. faked a friend online to someone to sound cool . for my birthday my mother did a complete chook and stuffing and prawns and baked veggies and a huge melon and ice-cream cake and we bought other cakes and nibbles but no one ever comes as if I am completely a killer psycho. and I am nothing like that. just as usual no one came. I don’t rate a hi its just always been a sullen effort for them to show any care for me. its like everyone around me is extreme engrossed in their own bubble of self they can’t notice someone else has any feelings or needs. I used to put an effort in for others and I noticed after some years no one in my family or so called friends ever do for me. what is wrong with me that I am seen as less in others eyes. even when I was young and had a perfectly clean house nothing was ever good enough. if I gained weight or lost it, if I worked or not. its like the counted the hours I was not working more over any productivity in other ways or work at all and valued me souly on their live experiences only rather then valuing me for me as a person in my own right. whose mental delusion of an existance is this and why push it on me since i was a kid for some warped pathetic persons titilations.