I started dating my ex-husband’s best friend…At first he was just trying to be a nice friend to me, and support me, confirming me that I’m not crazy, that my ex-husband didn’t treat me nicely. He was very gentle and kind, and unlike my ex who’s a “redpiller”, he’s not sexist or misogynistic at all! What a nice guy. He’s just shy and introverted. We had a lot of good time together, and the happiness is not superficial “adult” activities like going to a fancy hotel or fancy bar, more childish and natural. He’s such a gem! All the kids love him because he plays with them and listens to them. He’s never lost temper. And with him we found wild crawfishes in the river, skip stones like kids, watch shooting stars and milky ways while sleeping in his old half-broken car, he also found a lot of 4 leaves clovers for me! I’ve never felt this kind of happiness since I became an adult! Also he has a nice body (but most of the time he hides it under his baggy old T-shirt), and a huge you-know-what! Our s** is amazing! We are both open to new experiences, are willing to learn and please our partner in bed, and our kinks are compatible too! He’s probably the best s** partner I’ve had too. I’d love to go into details but that would not belong here.

I think I love him, but neither of us has said anything. Even though I’m pretty, tall and have an OK career, I’ve always been feeling that I’m not a good girlfriend/wife. I’m too messy and sometimes will have mood swings. I am sure I have ADHD. I will get a formal assessment next week. And I’m going to therapy and work harder to make myself to be a better person. Hopefully I can find my calm and happiness! Life will get better…