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When I was 16 we drove down to visit family in the city. We stayed at my aunt’s house and my second cousin was visiting too. She’s two years older than me and I haven’t seen her since we were little. I remember how it started, we were playing my xbox and talking. Some way she mentioned she got a n***** piercing. I told her I wanted mine done and if it hurt. Then somehow she agreed to show me and pulled up her shirt to show her maybe C cup t*** with one being pierced. I got turned on but played it cool. We soon found ourselves having some s***** charged looks and energy. Later we went on a walk down the street to a park just the two of us. There was a tunnel thing and I made my move by pressing her against the wall and feeling her up a bit kissing her neck. I think she got a bit too into it and scared because she seemed to like it but pushed me away anyway. It didn’t make things any awkward though. We kept walking and talking. Eventually later that night we again found ourselves alone in the living room while everyone else was in bed. We were lying on the floor under a blanket and began to touch each other. It was my first time ever being touched. I remember my c*** was so hard and her p**** was also incredibly soaking wet. I remember it felt so alien to me putting my fingers in her wet p****. I also remember her asking if it was my first time and if I liked how wet she was, I said yes and yes. Then she touched herself and spread what seemed like so much of her juices onto my c*** stroking it. She said she wasn’t going to have s** with me though and I replied that I already decided I wasn’t going to either being that we’re cousins and I wanted to hold onto my virginity as well. Still her hands and body felt so good. I fingerd and fondled her for maybe 10 minutes while she stroked me. We didn’t get to finish as my dad noisily came out to use the bathroom and we had to suddenly stop then just went to bed after that. Over the next two days of my visit we fooled around a bit and I got to touch her soaking wet p**** a couple more times in the backseat while my parents drove us around. By the end of our visit we felt very close but all together stopped and just went back to normal. We never never talked about it since and I’ve never told anyone else. True Story

New Confession

I am a 25-year-old virgin still trapped in my parents’ house, and I am putting my absolute darkest secret out into the open because I feel like I was reincarnated just to suffer. My life is a complete joke, and everything cucks me. I feel like I lost all purpose, and honestly, the only things holding me back from ending it are my parents and the social pressure and humiliation. I just want my own place to finally try out stuff like alcohol or hookers, or to get myself brutally dominated just to see if it makes me feel whole. But I get so cucked I cannot even leave the house outside of work or come a minute too late at home, and it is so draining.

Look at the architecture of who built me. My immigrant parents brought me here, couldn’t teach me the language, and threw me into special education where I was branded, bullied, and broken. The school bullies destroyed my self-worth. Even worse was a girl back then who publicly humiliated me while I wore track pants, sticking her finger slightly inside my b*** in front of others and then smelling it, while her profile bio literally said Alhamduillah, f*** her. Look at the adults who warped me: a mean babysitter who dominated me, and two female therapists in their 30s who had me lie on the ground, trampled me with their feet, and talked about how strong I am and how much weight I could take. That planted a sickness in me.

Look at my first crush who completely humiliated me, rejecting the necklace I got her and telling me to bring it to a reunion, calling me her sissy, and screenshotting my confession of love to send to her friends. I curse every single second and minute I wasted waiting for her texts. Then there was that female coworker with the age gap, my exact type. We had fun shifts, but she was a b**** who used me, made me do her bidding, and then replaced me. After she got the ick from learning too much about me, she isolated me, made others believe I had a crush on her, got me bullied, and drove me to call in sick until I got another job. I still stalk her profile pictures, freeze up when I see her, block and delete chats, and use AI to generate pictures of us out of sheer obsession.

My brain is a disaster. I have undiagnosed ADHD, autism, and aphantasia, meaning I cannot even properly visualize the opportunities I try to manifest. I cannot tie shoes, read a clock, or do basic math, which makes me feel retarded. I am right wing leaning against migration. I am literally the same race as these pieces of s*** out there raising the birth rates, mistreating women, and acting like gang rapists, but I am so cucked and useless. I hate my name, my culture, everything. I am smart enough to understand how backwards we are, even psy-opping myself with a BNWO fetish and plapping.

P*** addiction started early and completely destroyed my masculinity, sinking me into deep depression. I try to quit, I try to lose weight, but every time I try to improve, people trigger me. Everyone abuses me, uses me, and blocks me. I cant even move out because my parents get a panic attack, yet they expect me to marry and give them grandkids while they cuck me to oblivion. It all feels so cruel. I don’t even have any friends, even that was not wanted. I don’t even know how or if I can fix myself. Maybe putting this out here will change something, because this is my ultimate secret.

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