years ago and as a kid I masturbated on my dads things sometimes and other things , like toys and objects around the house and one day I was in shower and seen his brush and he found me in the shower m*********** on it and I often did it in the bath as well on his brush in the water and it would make farting noises and I found it made me fart then and I smelled my own farts in water and they smelled better then then anywhere else. I feel bad about it now but I don’t know what came over me when I would m********* it was like I was possessed by a demonic force. I had heard all these pop stars talking about it and I never told a soul what I did. I felt so dirty afterwards and would just pretend like it didn’t happen. I can tell you, I loved chairs, coffee tables , the toilet seat, candle sticks and phones, skin care tubes, umbrellas, shoes, anything phallic in fact. I even got the dog to m********* a shoe with me one time and I feel bad about that. Then I seen on the farm milking sperm and tried it in cup with the dog. I am really sorry god. I don’t know what came over me to do such vile sick things. I have been confessing this for years and still feel bad.