No matter how hard I try I dont ever understand peoples curiosity about certain things, like for example other peoples business, more someone that kind of doesnt really have anytbing to do with them.

Just say for example I am a delivery driver. Like trucks. And Im delivering to a restaurant where there is a cook, who is the husband of a woman who is a friend of the wife of one of my good long time friends. Alright. And I dont really talk to anyone including him much these days. Years. Thats a whole long other story, but it is what it is.

So anyway this guy is married to her, has 2 kids, one of them is not his. Now, if Im being honest, I dont care in the slightest aboit this guy and his life. I simply dont care. Why should I. Im not alcurious about how its going, I simply dont care thats all I can say and its real. I might be content with myself and too busy being selfish thinking about myself and my life and thats enouyh on my plate, I dont know, but I do not care.

BUT this past Christmas he did it. How was your Christmas? Do you have any kids? My answer to him then was no…

Alright, so this past Saturday, Fathers Day eve I went there. I did my thing, and as Im about to leave he says Happy Fathers Day… to which I responded, but it was in the form of lightly laughing and not saying anything as I put their invoice into their wall folder, then the owner, his boss, a lady chimes in with yeah, “happy fathers day…. I dont know if you have kids or pets or…” to which I replied with another light laugh to myself still facingg away and then “alright have a good weekend….” as I walked out the door to leave. Now, that should have been the end of it … f*** off. This is not coffee talk my objective is to go home as soon as possible. Im good looking, Im nice, lets leave it at that

But it wasnt. I go there today, Tuesday, 2 days later and as Im leaving he asks how was your father’s day?

My response was a confused, krinkled forehead, squint eyed look like what? As I thought about an appropriate answer for a second… I was immediately suspicious though too.

I could say “f*** off, mind your buisines” which might not end well for me, but you never know either. I got praise today for all I do lately. It would be pretty hard to replace me in many ways. Thats truth Value/$/competance and that does matter a lot to my boss.

I could say Didnt I tell you at Christmas that I dont have any kids? What is your obsession with fatherhood? Are you feeling inadequate as a man because you are making an omlet and I am doing man's work?… and better looking…

I could say any number of things I was in a hurry, so what came out was “as good as it could be…”

It is weird though. I dont think Im a psychopath for not even being remotely curious about peoples lives. I really dont care.  This is a bit creepy with the connection. It feels a bit like tentacles feom the unseen creature coming out and it actually pushes me further away from that friend but who knows

This guy could know the b**** who is the cause, ground zero for my current way of thinking and my views. Keeping myself private. He worked at Cullpeppers back then too about her age its entirely possible. I dont like him personally, but they arent MY friends

It never ceases to amaze my though. Unless it has to do with me, if we arent friends or I am uninterested in you, I dont give the slightest s*** about you or your life and I wont even pretend. Ill be nice, I might ask if your busy, Ill say bye, Ill check out any hot chicks youre working with, but I dont even care. That often goes for co workers too. I dont care. Maybe its that I am too busy looking out for number one. I need to keep my eyes on the road, I would usually rather be me than anyone else anyway, regardless of any s*** Ive seen or been through, there is no way I would want to be anyone else. Im not perfect, Im trying to live with and deal with my issues too, I dont give the slightest s*** about you or yours. Not even a little bit. Sign the paper, have a good one. Nothing else is needed.

I feel like there is a whole lt of people who take great interest in me and I have no idea why. Thats just one example I have so many people out fishing for me, I dont underatand it

Stalkers. I have stalkers and for many years too. Decades. I try to stay private and keep what is important to me, away from that. As much as I can, they s till get in there sometimes and it costs me, but I try to keep it away Ask me once, fine I can forgive, how could they know? But when you do it over and over, its a bit suspicious especially with the connections, and that kind of s***. Theres those peolle like that who dont think you’ll know any better either, Im not your average dumb a**. Suspicion immediately if its the right circumstances. Its involuntary, I have the force, suspicion and that kind of s*** is natural. It dont feel right. My spidey sense is tingling.