Yeah you were a pretty s***** person to me, and I don’t think people change in certain ways either, and looking back on it I was kind of naive about the whole thing, I kind of saw myself as invisible as far as being in you heart, I really did, it;s like theat mone time fairly eary on I remeber you asked me almost sarcastically “so you think you;re pretty hot eh…” chewing on some gum, we were at my place or something and it was all you, right. I put it out there but it was all you, and you were a thoroughly s*** person from my perspective. For what I want, need all that, thats from my persoective, someone else will say “you need to be a s***** person to get through life” and I believe you can’t let people get away with shitting on your head, I’m about middle ground on that, if you treat me like an a******, well I’ll out a****** you, and you might end up crying too, I guess I’m saying you’re not wrong, but just wrong for me. Plebnty of men out there would absolutely love it, it;s all worth it to them, but yeah. You brought out the worst in me, and you kicked my a**, but I was dumb. I saw you for what you were and ignored it completetly. I have only myself to blame for it. Tough break s***** mistake on my part, but at this point all these many years past it, years ago, like a decade ago, I started noticing that when I get arou nd people who are genuine, they know nothing about me at all other than what I give them, and we get to know each other, because I am not one to talk about these kinds of things. That’s no one’s buisiness, but I meet people, we get to know each other, it always makes me realize hoiw wrong you were for me, and how good it feels when things are right and not contaminated with all the toxic mess that was you.

I also still think you think about me. Obviously. Even if it is some sick s***, you like to watch or something. You’re kind of like that. You like whips and chains and clamps on your n****** and pictures of fruit being tortured. Yeesh… Would you even be attractive to me now in any way? Physically? How much more baggage have you collected? How many freakin kids do you have? Would I care? I know some pretty hot women, are you as good at this point?