My mom used to punish me s*******. I was raped and abused by her for years. But I put this under ‘a wild experience’ because I actually love most of the experiences I had with her. I feel so fucked up but wouldn’t be me without it. If that makes sense. She used to make me walk around naked in front of her friends and she would make fun of my p****. After they left she would rub my p**** until I came or she would s*** on me. She told me that the explosion ending was necessary for me to grow. Sometimes she would make me finger her v***** or if I was in trouble she’d naughty smother my face in her a** and v*****. She also used to pee on me. As a teenager she’d force me to m********* for her and finish on myself and make me eat my c**. I look back on these horrifying experiences with a lens of s***** excitement and kink. I had some pretty intense therapy as an adult to work through it.
As an adult though, I have to hook up with older women that will punish me or dominate me. So that makes it hard to have a real relationship. So that part s****. Anyway… Sometimes it helps to get this out there when I haven’t in a long time.