This morning I woke up while dreaming about a dear friend of mine who moved out to San Diego to start a new life and career. I realize how much I miss her and how sad I am for not trying to pursue a relationship with her. I was so sad that I went to the bathroom to m********* because I was dreaming of being intimate with her and I yearn to have that sort of connection and feeling of having a loving woman at my side. I don’t know if this just me being desperate or me feeling lonely, but all I know is that I want a woman in my life, which is all I want.