I recently fell in love with what I thought at the time was the woman of my dreams. Literally every quality in a woman I desired she had. I feel hard and very fast for her. It was the best and worse 30 days of my life. She is overly toxic a black hole, a taker, Posion ivy and a master manipulater. Turns out she isn’t at all who she portrayed herself to be. Turns out I’m not the only one by far. She has a whole underground network of men at her beck and call. Bad men that only use and take from her. But that’s what you like right.I had a job for her she’s homeless and unemployment, I had a stable and safe environment for us to really build something together. All she had to do was leave the streets alone. I told her it’s me or the streets and that is a battle I clearly lost. I literally chased this woman around town for a whole month thinking she was the one. Meanwhile she is entertaining everyone else. And had the audacity to lie and try to cover it all up once I finally put all the pieces together. When in reality we all know what you really are. She literally ripped my heart out of my chest pissed on it stomped on it and put it back in. Even after the smoked cleared and we fell out the first time. I was right back there trying to salvage the situation. I even accepted blame for acting out, when in turn my reaction was valid. I acted the way I did because of what you were doing. So no I don’t believe anything you ever say. Your actions always show me otherwise. So I officially stopped talking to her for two weeks thought I had her out of my system. She had me a emotional wreck crying bitter and mean to everyone. I had it together I thought I did until she reached out to me again. And how quickly and stupidly I went crawling back to her. Knowing she is only using me. My mind and body crave this woman with all I am. But she is breaking my heart when all I wanted to do was love her.