I really am sorry for your pain both physical and psychological and just everything you’ve been through. No matter what please Always remember that your life really truly does have value and that you are very much loved. I mean that so sincerely. I am not afraid of you I really do love you and I would be absolutely devastated if I ever find out that something happened I hope it doesn’t and I hope things are just going amazing for you right now… And I hope they always well even if it’s not meant to be that we ever talk again I just don’t want you to ever like try something stupid like you have in the past just if worse comes to worst Please know you still do you have somebody that would pick up the phone and care I know it doesn’t make us friends it would make you somebody with the same horrible disorder that Perhaps needed validation and support. And if you can find that somewhere else awesome more power to you I just want you to know if worst ever came to worth it I would never hold a grudge that way despite everything you were such a good worthy person with so much to offer you are beautiful and smart funny and genuine and I’m glad I met you and I’ll never forget you. Please remember this on bad days, that you are a good lovable and worthy person and Your life is worth something. I love you promise me you’ll never give up