Today I’ve went to town to purchase some comics (Wolverine and Deadpool, Deadpool Unlimited and 2000 AD) as well as Assassin’s Creed Odyssey for the PS4. I’m attempting the NoFap challenge, so I need to engage in a substantial amount of activities. I’ve had 2 autism meltdowns today, both because of my dad pressuring me to get ready. The latter was the worst: I shouted in public and it drew attention to a bystander. I had to explain to her about my condition, which I think was a good thing due to the embarrassment snapping me out of the episode. Subsequently my speech patterns were slowed, monosyllabic even. I usually have no problem making eye contact however the shame made me incapable of lifting my eyes from the ground. This was, of course prior to going to town. Usually I achieve a minimal amount of revision with a sufficient result in the exams of the subject at hand. Despite this, I’ve got no other choice but to revise because of the prevalence of s**** retention. My depression and anxiety has been all but non-existent throughout the duration of the journey. Yesterday at 5:30 PM, I chose to abstain from exercise for reasons seemingly unbeknownst to my father. I know that it was the result of a panic attack. If all goes well, which it presumably will, I can attempt my 500m run.

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