I am afraid to say it. But sensual love that happens over time while in your prime and youth is lovely when it grows on you like the vines and ivy leaves clinging to the walls and trellis. Whatever happened to old fashioned sensual s***** love between good friends as teens at school or park or work etc ground adults not much different not everyone wants to bitten and cut and wiped and chained up and dragged around and slapped or done doggy walking the dog on the leash but today yeh , why? I never experienced it but prayed for it all the time. I wanted the movie like l***** with my older cousins son or with a hot young guy close by. I think if a man or a boy really loves a girl or woman he should have s** with her how she wants it and where and when and how. He should ask her what her wishes are. A guy should spend time making out in her bedroom and having sleep overs and is it better that the family know what is going on then her raped in some dark alley way outside a nightclub or low class hotel room. No virgin wants that as her first experience. She wants to fall in love and be playful and spend nights under the stars and drive around and go out and do the movies and beaches and clubs and make out with her boyfriend in her bedroom quietly before going the full way. Heavens a man should know that, anticipate it and tolerate it. But men today are just so F*** You B****! Bend over S** in the City Alley ways now.

I wish I could say I had one good s***** encounter but I have not ! that scares me. It would be wild to have a sensual loving experience with someone fresh new and part of the enlightenment rather then some old dragon and dirty old man or some p*** or primitive ape or some devil horned beast or some nig.

god help me!