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As a little black girl my mother married an older white man who was a guard at Statesville Penitentiary in Joliet, Il. He was a p******** and predator. She didn’t know at the time who she married. He molested me between the ages of 7-9 years old. Fondled me and performed oral on me. Had me touch him. It changed me…like it altered my DNA. I’m almost 50 now and for DECADES I’ve actively had s***** encounters with white men mainly wanting oral only. It took me years of counseling to come to terms with liking oral and preferring it over any other s***** contact. I understand where it came from- the desire. I don’t hate that Im this way, its just a shame how I came upon this. I partially feel ‘normal’ and the other part feels understandably DAMAGED. I just don’t let it control me like prior years. That’s my true confession.

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I have never been able to keep a relationship because of having a m i c r o p e n i s. Barely a nub flaccid and barely three inches on my best day. I sincerely do not blame women for the s***** rejection at all. When i do date anyone long enough for the potential for it to become s***** i tell them up front and most women appreciate it. A couple of women have asked to see it because they are curious and cant beliieve a p e n i s can be so small. I am so grateful to one of those women because she wanted to see it erect as well and helped me m*********. She even asked to take it in her mouth simply to see what it was like to not choke or gag. She was shocked when she saw how massively i ejaculated and ezpressed sincere sympathy when she told me afterwards it must drive me crazy to have that much in me all the time and said after that the really strange part was how my tiny p e n i s is so out of proportion to how large my t e s t i c l e s are. We ended up becoming long term friends and have coffee or lunch or dinner platonic dates almost every week. One dinner date she seemed off and after having a strong drink asked if she could watch me again. I was thrilled of course. I was laying on my couch recovering and she went to get somethiing to help me clean up and asked if i trusted her. She made me swear to not over think what she was about to do and then gave me a long slow passionate time in her mouth. After we caught our breath she told me that as much as she loved the concept of givilng b l o wj o b s it was not enjoyable becsuse of the size of most men. She has never had interest in anything else and no contact with her body at all but every few months she asks and gives that to me. She is a sincere friend, she told me long ago thar my small size would be a no go for her, but she introduced me to someone she knew who was a part time e***** as a side gig and i pay that woman a fair amount of money to simply sit clothed and watch me m*********.

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I have never been able to keep a relationship because of having a m i c r o p e n i s. Barely a nub flaccid and barely three inches on my best day. I sincerely do not blame women for the s***** rejection at all. When i do date anyone long enough for the potential for it to become s***** i tell them up front and most women appreciate it. A couple of women have asked to see it because they are curious and cant beliieve a p e n i s can be so small. I am so grateful to one of those women because she wanted to see it erect as well and helped me m*********. She even asked to take it in her mouth simply to see what it was like to not choke or gag. She was shocked when she saw how massively i ejaculated and ezpressed sincere sympathy when she told me afterwards it must drive me crazy to have that much in me all the time and said after that the really strange part was how my tiny p e n i s is so out of proportion to how large my t e s t i c l e s are. We ended up becoming long term friends and have coffee or lunch or dinner platonic dates almost every week. One dinner date she seemed off and after having a strong drink asked if she could watch me again. I was thrilled of course. I was laying on my couch recovering and she went to get somethiing to help me clean up and asked if i trusted her. She made me swear to not over think what she was about to do and then gave me a long slow passionate time in her mouth. After we caught our breath she told me that as much as she loved the concept of givilng b l o wj o b s it was not enjoyable becsuse of the size of most men. She has never had interest in anything else and no contact with her body at all but every few months she asks and gives that to me. She is a sincere friend, she told me long ago thar my small size would be a no go for her, but she introduced me to someone she knew who was a part time e***** as a side gig and i pay that woman a fair amount of money to simply sit clothed and watch me m*********.