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I have a secret. I love a Shaolin warrior monk, but he’s not a monk anymore. I keep my feelings hidden, but my love for him grows stronger every day. I don’t want to tell him, so I keep it to myself. Then, he changed his path and became an actor. I had no idea he was acting. I was shocked to see him online with so many followers and fans. It feels like he’s above me now, and all I can do is cry. I can’t reach him because he’s so popular. I love him deeply. I get jealous when other women tell him they love him. I feel hopeless because he has so many fans. If he knew how I felt, he would probably just see me as another fan.

I still love him and hide my feelings. There are good days and bad days, and I often cry. When I feel jealous or see another woman flirting with him, I cry a lot. It hurts so much that I feel like I’m losing my mind, but I’ve held on for years. I cry every year. I feel okay sometimes, but when I get hurt again, the tears come back. It’s like I could cry blood. One woman even told him she ‘longs’ for him. I cried again. It’s overwhelming how many women love him. I think the women in his circle are rich and beautiful.I did nothing but hide because if he knew I love him, he would likely see me as just a fan.

Back then, when he was a Shaolin warrior monk, I was struggling with my feelings. I dreamed of him leaving his monk life to marry me. I wanted to be his girlfriend and then his wife. I had these dreams, but I knew they were impossible. My mind was fighting my heart, telling me it wasn’t allowed. Later, when he became an actor, I thought maybe he would go back to being a monk so no woman would pursue him. I let him go to a woman I knew was close to him. I felt jealous because I had nothing to offer, but she had what he needed. I gave him to her. Still, I tried to be selfless. I knew I was losing to her, but deep down, I wished he was mine. I really love him, but there’s nothing I can do.

Now, he doesn’t know how much I love him. I love him so much. I just keep looking at his social media. I also check the account of the girl who likes him and is now his friend, I think.

I lose. I really lose. If only… if only he were mine. Just mine. My heart is calling out for him. I love him so much. So much.

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When I was younger, not the youcaler and there’s a girl that used to live up the street from me, I used to go over to her house and play with her in her backyard, and 1 day you were out there playing and her mom and dad came out and said you 2 need to come in before it gets stormy out and people flip them, it didn’t seem like it was going to get stormy out, but we went in anyways and we went down in the basement. Her father had a camera set up and a couch there in a chair. And he told us to sit down and we did and total death start taking off our clothes, and we did get completely n***, and he was taking pictures of me n***. Her father started playing with my c*** and looked over at her mother and they where playing with one another then also sudden her father open up my legs and looked down on me and started sucking my c***. He wife said Sam are you video taping this. He shake his head yes and said he taste very good. Then he lifted my legs up high and he put his c*** inside me. He slowly put it all the inside me and bring it all the way back out. He kept doing that for a couple of hours .he told his wife to get the camera up close and when he pulled out of me a lot c** came out. He must have c** inside me a lot to have that much c** coming out of me. We did it again the next day. But this time he was really pushing it deeper inside me and we did different precision , and he was still shoving it in so deep. He did this a lot that hole day. He was calling me his son too. Then he asked me son do you like it when I f*** you. I said yes daddy. But all this time my mother and father was watching him f*** me like that from the other room. He would f*** me and c** inside me so much and video tape him and me having s** together. One day my mom and dad wasn’t there because two other men fucked me. I know he was charging them to have s** with me and taped all of it.He did this time after time and my mother and father weren’t there. One time there was 5 other guys there and they all took turns f****** me. They all came inside me and there was all kinds of people watching. Time after time there were all kinds of men f****** me. It was like they had a party and these men would f*** me good.

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When I was younger, not the youcaler and there’s a girl that used to live up the street from me, I used to go over to her house and play with her in her backyard, and 1 day you were out there playing and her mom and dad came out and said you 2 need to come in before it gets stormy out and people flip them, it didn’t seem like it was going to get stormy out, but we went in anyways and we went down in the basement. Her father had a camera set up and a couch there in a chair. And he told us to sit down and we did and total death start taking off our clothes, and we did get completely n***, and he was taking pictures of me n***. Her father started playing with my c*** and looked over at her mother and they where playing with one another then also sudden her father open up my legs and looked down on me and started sucking my c***. He wife said Sam are you video taping this. He shake his head yes and said he taste very good. Then he lifted my legs up high and he put his c*** inside me. He slowly put it all the inside me and bring it all the way back out. He kept doing that for a couple of hours .he told his wife to get the camera up close and when he pulled out of me a lot c** came out. He must have c** inside me a lot to have that much c** coming out of me. We did it again the next day. But this time he was really pushing it deeper inside me and we did different precision , and he was still shoving it in so deep. He did this a lot that hole day. He was calling me his son too. Then he asked me son do you like it when I f*** you. I said yes daddy. But all this time my mother and father was watching him f*** me like that from the other room. He would f*** me and c** inside me so much and video tape him and me having s** together. One day my mom and dad wasn’t there because two other men fucked me. I know he was charging them to have s** with me and taped all of it.He did this time after time and my mother and father weren’t there. One time there was 5 other guys there and they all took turns f****** me. They all came inside me and there was all kinds of people watching. Time after time there were all kinds of men f****** me. It was like they had a party and these men would f*** me good.