I can’t wait for my dad to die, because then I will finally be free of him. It’s gonna be so weird having to pretend to be sad when that day eventually comes, because I’ll really be crying of relief. And to give you some context as to why I wish he was dead already: He is an abusive, narcissistic, neglectful, man-child excuse of a “father”. He has never been a real father to anyone in my family. The only thing he’s ever done is scar us forever. I’ve tried so hard to forgive him, to love him, to give him a chance to change. And every single time I’ve been let down. He’s incapable of getting better. It’s been a little more than 20 years. My dad had a stroke when I was very little, and after that stroke he was never the same person, he drastically changed for the worse. I’ve been silently grieving the old dad he was before the stroke ever since, because that was my real dad. My mom really should have just divorced him ages ago, I wish they didn’t stay together. I know I probably sound like a horrible person for wishing death on my own father, but I honestly don’t care. If you knew him like I do: You would wish the same.