The only thing that would make life worthwhile is something I can’t have. I’m sick of hearing the f****** lies that, “Things get better,” or, “There’s good in life too,” because all they do is feed into a fantastical f****** delusion. The only lesson I’ve ever learned is that happiness is a punishment to make you feel more miserable once you’ve lost it. I wish I’d never experienced happiness at all. At least I didn’t know what I was missing out on before. Life is punishment, pain, disappointment, and betrayal, and as soon as you start to believe differently or let your guard down you’ll immediately be fucked over. Happiness is a delusion willfully ignorant people judge you for not participating it. Believing that s*** causes more harm than it will ever do good. Accepting reality is much less painful. You’ll be pleasantly surprised if something good magically happens in this f****** hellhole.