Everyone close to me has low key hated me my entire life. Family growing up, most friends just saw me as someone to abuse or take advantage of, and when I drew the line somehow I was the a****** and the bad guy for it. Women famously would get carried away in lust with me, then as soon as I show actual feeling or real emotion they run for their lives. I am currently married, have been for 6 years now to someone I have in total been with for 14 years. She also hates me, needs me for nothing more than chores and a check every 2 weeks, and constantly just likes to make me feel bad about everything I am (her mother came by this morning and I was made to feel guilty for not saying “Happy Mother’s Day” even though it isn’t until tomorrow). Obviously I’ve considered suicide many times in my life but I always came to the conclusion that that would please all of these people too much and give them exactly what they wanted. But I gotta tell ya living this way blows dogs for quarters. F***** miserable. I won’t bail on my daughter, I know everyone has told me time and again “Talk to her about it” jeez why didn’t I think of that? She refuses hard talks and just likes to ignore real issues and pretend everything is fine. I am at my wits end with this. Can’t leave, can’t die, I just have to keep enduring this until she finds my replacement or I die not by my own hand first. I love my daughter too so I don’t necessarily want these things, I just want the woman I married back. She has been replaced by a gender neutral, asexual, gelatinous mass that wears nothing but sweats 24/7. This is how I know she’s over me, she used to dress nice and actually make an attempt. Since the baby she’s pretty much gotten all she needed out of me besides the chores and the check as I mentioned before. I really cant believe this is my eternity…..