I wasn’t trying to be obsessive again.
I was looking back on my thoughts and offering a genuine apology for making your blood boil. Setting you off again was not my intention, and I hope you can understand and appreciate my efforts. (No I’m not being sarcastic)
I do see my thoughts are obsessive, but it was coming from a positive place. I didn’t sexualize you or say anything untrue this time.
I hate that I’ve hurt your feelings to the point that just hearing about me makes you wish death upon me.
Again, not here to stock or upset you. (I’ll never get better if I don’t process these thoughts from my past) Do you really want me to suffer forever, or do you want me to get better? I respect either choice. I don’t expect forgiveness, but I know you deserve not to feel that anger.
.. D*nm I really am obsessed and need help with this.. (but was it the fact that I know your b-day, love of coffee anything, or me looking up things I’ve said to you?) I guess all of it, I kinda answered that myself there.