I always thought you and I were different.
That our electric connection had to be special.
I convinced myself that you couldn’t possibly be like everyone else.
That there would be no way you could just turn away from me.
Now here I am facing the reality that I couldn’t possibly mean that much to someone. That it is in fact true that no one could ever truly want me.
Our minimal conversations just remind me of how cold you feel towards me now.
On top of losing my one in a million person I lost a friend too.
So as I pull back more and more each day I still feel the emptiness and I probably always will.
Honestly, I wish I would have never allowed myself to feel in the first place, at my age there is no point anyway.