I am a true lesbian. However due to my upbringing and family I have kept this in the closet. When things got difficult, including financially, I accepted to be bailed out by one of my coworkers. He’s not gay, so that means I have to sleep with him. It’s the price I pay for not being out as a lesbian.
He wants children now, he’s 38 and I’m 28. I have to face up to that and I don’t have an easy out. He stood over me while I washed down the toilet all of my birth control. He is very serious. I know I’ll be pregnant soon and I have to go through it.
To my parents that can’t wait for me to present them with a grandson or granddaughter. I’ve rationalized that being pregnant is nothing more that being a woman. But I know deep down inside that once he makes me pregnant I am tied to him for all eternity, I’m never escaping.