My mother is an absolute fucking narcissistic psychopath. I’m 34 F and am still stuck under her roof because of the controlling and abnormal way she - Simply Confess

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My mother is an absolute f****** narcissistic psychopath. I’m 34 F and am still stuck under her roof because of the controlling and abnormal way she raised me, she would freak out anytime I mentioned getting a job, she only ever wanted me to work for whatever endeavour she wanted to do and that would keep me under shelter, otherwise she would kick me out of the house. My father separated from her when I was around 16, he lived in the basement for some years and eventually left the house. He asked me if I wanted to help him with some construction work and he would pay me, I agreed. I told her the night before he was going to pick me up at 7:30 and that I was going to work with him for the day and he was going to pay me and she did a complete s*** show over it. She started saying how I don’t wake up early to go do the s*** SHE wants to do to look for ‘jobs’ but can’t understand that she drains the will to live out of me, has me in constant fight or flight because she always f****** yells over stupid s***. She said I was basically a retard incapable of thought and that he was going to brain wash me and that his ‘people’ were going to get me into their ‘cult’ and all this other completely absurd none sense. She’s completely f****** unhinged. Went on for f****** hours with these demented delusions of what was going to happen just because I was going to go to work with my father. I’ve spent my life going along with her b******* because if I didn’t I wouldn’t hear the end of it or would be threatened of being kicked out, and because of her fear tactics I’m a broke p************ that couldn’t afford to leave. I’ve had enough of living with this f****** dictator, narcissist, controlling psychopath. I found out I could get some money if I was living in an abusive situation and qualified so hopefully It will be enough to get out of this f****** hell hole. She deserves to die alone for being such a f****** lunatic and I wish she would die now. I feel bad that my grandmother is going to be stuck living with her but I guess it’s her problem for living so long. I don’t know why you would want to make it 100 years of age living such a miserable life, but it can’t be my problem going forward.

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I met my friend in August of 2022. We met over a fandom for a YouTuber we both liked, we’d talk, shade headcanons, write, and the like. She was wonderful. She was perfect, so sweet and kind, loving, caring, passionate. Of course I fell in love with her.

Something in my mind at some point, I don’t know where, just seemed to break. I saw her as this absolutely perfect, flawless angel. Someone above me, someone above feeling the ways I do, someone so perfect she couldn’t possibly be upset by me. So I put more and more on my angel. She can’t feel bad, she’s perfect. It’s wrong, but that’s how my mind was working. I still see her as someone so beautiful and amazing.

I professed my love to her. She didn’t want it. But I pushed her on, continually telling her I loved her, over and over again professing my feelings and pretty much BEGGING for her to love me back. She didn’t want it yet I pressed on, spamming her with love declarations at LEAST weekly, hoping that maybe someday she’d change her mind.

But that’s not even the end of it. No, she was either perfect or evil to me. And whatever set me to treating her like my perfect savior angel, it all came crashing back down in reverse. All over YouTube drama. The moment she did something I didn’t perceive as perfect, I snapped. That YouTube channel we both like had been called out for being an abuser and I said it was unacceptable to keep watching and giving exposure to him, she said I should just let people enjoy things. I made an angry post about how everyone who liked that channel was enabling his abuse, got banned from the community, and I was desperate to come back. They were my only friends.

I made an alt account to pretty much stalk my angel, I was jealous and controlling and paranoid over her finding someone better than me and leaving me now that she was upset at me. I joined back in the servers I wasn’t allowed in. I listened in to a call she was in. At the same time, I was messaging her on my main account, pretty much yelling at her about how she’s funding and platforming an abuser. On my alt, I would act all sweet, I knew my relationship with her was already ruined so I thought if I became someone else, someone better, someone ideal, she’d love me.

This was the end for us. She found me out and completely cut me off, then later I was sent a document detailing everything I’ve done and that I abused her, broke her mentally, and made it so she can’t trust anyone anymore.

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