I have some things that are strange kinks. I have tried some and others I want to try. Here are 2. First some relevant info. I am a black woman over age forty. I have experimented with being spanked. I find I like it a lot. However, I have managed to stay celibate for 10 years now. That’s because I have decided to try and follow God as best I can. I have however come to the conclusion that I stilwant some of things I wanted when I was s******* active. I have decided I can have that if I did by acquiring the right husband. I have a weird fetish of wanting to be called the N word with the hard “er” during s** by a man of another race. I think that’s partly because it involves humiliation which is another unspoken kink of mine. That’s also why being urinated on is fascinating to me. So I figure if I find a husband who does not mind all this then I will have in fact hit the jackpot. Don’t get me wrong, I have found plenty of men my own race who do not mind humiliating me in a s***** way so it can still work out that way too. I decided I want to be married to a man who wants to discipline me and humiliate me. I want him to be loving both in doors and outdoors, but puts disciplining me as top priority. I want him to set rules for every aspect of my life for me to follow. Make them possible for me to follow about 75% of the time and deliberately make the other 25% impossible for me to follow so that I will be guaranteed several spankings. A man who gives me a daily maintenance spanking on top of the disciplinary spankings. That way my b*** is tender every day. A man who calls me names in the dirtiest tones but can say how much he loves me in the next breath. I would never be allowed to turn him down for s** When he asks for it, that’s when I am required to give it. It doesn’t matter where we are when he gives the order. If he wants to whip out his d*** in broad daylight and tells me to s*** it, I am required to drop down and do it right then and there. Also every part of my body below my shoulders, front side and backside, is available for discipline and correction. He would be in charge of creative punishments like making me strip naked and dropping to my knees, Then urinating on me in front of his friend’s while calling me dirty names which sounds even better when you add the n word with the hard “er” to it. That’s what I want. I want to feel the hard thick wooden paddle on my a** and breasts.