you need to monitor your media and internet if you want to be better and healed. you know the group you’re in online lives at a lower frequency. this site, movies, p***, and written e***** stories do nothing but keep you at a lower level where you are basically functioning the way creatures do. there are even devil temptresses here on this site trying to entice you to stay in sin with them and be miserable. it’s not always about your thoughts, it’s your actions and environment. you’re smart enough to know a better person for you is someone who wants good for you, even if that isn’t them. that’s better than someone willing to do anything sinful and lustful to please you when you’re weak, to try to be your person. the first person hopes you will gain salvation, while the last does not care even that you will burn in hell. good luck.