i’m such a f***** idiot there was an actual guy that was interested in me and flirted w me but i was so scared of him and when he flirted back with me it physically made me scared like i wanted to cry and when i imagined being in a relationship w him it was terrifying i don’t know if i’m aroace or what but i’m gonna cry i don’t wanna be scared of men or relationships but i cant handle being called pet names or anything it makes me feel icky… and fear it’s mostly just all fear like deep dreadful fear idk i’m gonna cry i don’t wanna be alone the rest of my life i think it’s just trauma and if i try to heal it’ll help?? i don’t know i’m really scared i don’t wanna talk to him anymore