It’s f****** difficult being around someone who just DOES NOT want fix themselves for the better and does not understand that when you criticize them sort of, giving them the reality, this is what you need to f****** do, right f****** now, because people don’t respect you, on the principle alone, it gives them power and it’s the only thing tipping the scale of power in their way of thinking, but it’s also beneficial in many important ways too. And they take it as a mid slinging attack. Which is sort of is. It’s tough love. It’s my brother, and he needs that. I blame my mother for that. It made him almost useless and incapable. I was a bad kid, regretful, but I also got my a** justifiably kicked back too. And it made me strong. I got anything and everything I have, myself, with no help or guidance from anyone including my parents. Actually, what tipped the scale for me mid 20’s my friends girlfriend, a friend of mine too, recommended me to a woman at a government employment agency to literally sit there, get details out of me about me and my work history, she showed me how to write a resume. She showed me to slightly exaggerate this it’s, not severely, s*** you probably could back up of you needed to. That was late 90’s, that resume got me a job, which gave me a taste of the direction Id move. I use the same formula today. It has never failed and gotten me many a job. It was the nly thing I used that employment place for. I never went back. They have all kinds of services, actually maybe they got me that first job but my point is I had to figure this s*** out myself. I had friends, their dad would take them in at this heavy construction equipment place, or whatever. Give them something, I had to figure that out.

That’s what I said to him, he takes offense, tells me it sound like I’m rubbing it in his face that I’m better, but it’s like no man, I want you to be better off with more power to do what the f*** you want and have people know you mean business. When you tell them, look, it’s this way, I’m the f*** outta here, and good luck to you, because it’s no problem for me, you on the bother hand…

And people know you mean it. But I said that to him, f*** that, mom should have kicked your a** like that way earlier. You’d be better off. He doesn’t get it though. This is basic s***. It comes from feeling like s*** about life and then making a serious effort one direction at a time to unlock it. It’s basic s***. Not that difficult.