My first time was with an adult when I was a preteen. I was expecting to enjoy it or I never would have allowed it to happen but it was not what I guess I was expecting from what I heard and even seen in movies, read in articles and of course the rumors from my friends. Penetration was uncomfortable, just a few humps and he orgasmed into me. No kissing, not even telling me that I was pretty. He announced he was done and told me not to tell my mom and encouraged me to m********* quickly before leaving his apartment. I just went to the bathroom to wipe and I left feeling USED. I have never been with another man ever since. I identify as lesbian for a good reason.