When I was 12 years old I started to touch girls while they were sleeping back in 2017. It all began with my cousin who was 11 at the time when we both slept in the same bed. I slid my hands down her pants, touched her b*** and v*****, kissed her, fondled her b****, humped her, etc. I’ve went on to do the same thing to other sleeping girls ever since and I both love it and hate that I love it since it is very wrong. The last time I touched my cousin was in 2020 and to this day I still fantasize about her. I love her and I really want to have s** with her. I also wish for her to love me back.