to the narcissist: You said I was all you needed but always treated me like I didnt matter. you forced me to be ok with it. You said you´d always be my

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to the narcissist:
You said I was all you needed but always treated me like I didnt matter. you forced me to be ok with it. You said you´d always be my friend but neglected me while being present for anyone else. You forced me to be ok with it. You took away my sleep and my peace while dumping your stress and trauma on me, scaring me, talking crap about your exes and friends, your brother, your dad, everybody you met was stupid, crazy, ugly, loser, tyrant, nazi, too emotional. I was not ok with it and felt confused. You pretended I did something wrong because I wasn´t ok any more how you treated me and spoke up. I had to apologise for my reaction while you never apologized for the actions that caused them, to keep you in my life cause I cared and still believed you had a good heart. In secret you kept using me to dump your emotions, but I had no friend at all – AT ALL. Not even when my granny died. Never. You dated everyone you met and I had to be ok with it, and you told me details of your, khmm., “adventures” cause I was a “friend” and forced me to be ok with it. You said you will go to Ukraine to die cause you have no family or lover and I had to be ok with it. But now you are getting married, becoming a dad, buying a house, and you are ok with me not being ok that you lied to me, tricked me, made me worry for no reason, used me to purge all that b******* while knowing you never once were honest … Thats deception, thats fraud, it is a crime so of course it is not ok. It is up to police to investigate it. but you know what I am ok with? Finally having the burden taken off my shoulders. Finally being able to sleep without nightmares. I am ok with your friends still not believing me, gaslighting me, shushing me, calling me a liar. I am ok with them thinking you are a great person and giving hearts to your posts. Because YOU know who you are. and I do, too. The only reason you treated me like you did, was because you felt inferior and had to pull me down. and the only reason you treat others well, is cause you are scared they will see through the mask, so they pull YOU down. Mr Narcissist, you know who you are. and Im ok that you are finally gone.

New Confession

I started exp.osing myself in grade school. The girls were shocked and ran. In most cases they couldn’t see who I was because I covered my face.

Then in high school I ra.ped a girl. I ti e d her to a picnic table and spread her wide open. I examined her holes and then ra.ped her while she screamed and begged. It was a fantastic orga.sm. I kept her pa.nties as a souvenir. I released her and she must not have reported it because I never got in trouble. Too humiliating for her.

In college I ra.ped two more girls. I ra.ped one in the parking lot by dragging her into the nearby woods. I kept her pa.nties too.

Then there was this other girl who was always going around campus telling the male students to not ra.pe anyone. She promoted the idea that there was a ra.pe crisis. I think she just needed some co.ck so one weekend I took her and I ra.ped her repeatedly all weekend long, over and over.

Up her pu.ssy many times and up her a s s too. She was furious, she screamed and raged but eventually she broke and begged and pleaded. Funny thing was that she clim.axed several times while I ra.ped her. I also rubbed her cli.t with my finger and she clim.axed for that too. Her cl.it swelled and got really hard when I rubbed it, she started rocking and begging, “no, no, please no”. She kept rocking back and forth and then she couldn’t hold back anymore and she clim.axed, shivered, shook, moaned and moaned.

I asked her how it was to be the big ra.pe fear spreader on campus and then to get ra.ped She begged me to not tell anyone. I knew then she wasn’t going to report it. After that she no longer spread fear or talked about the male students being ra.pists. I bet she mast.urbates regularly while remembering being ra.ped and it’s probably the best or.gasms she ever has.

Funny thing is I’m dating a girl now who says that ra.pists should be cas.trated, emas.culated, de-balled. She doesn’t know that I am a ra.pist. She doesn’t know my history. I tried to persuade her against cas.tration but she says that ra.pe is so humiliating, it breaks the girl mentally and impacts her for life so the ra.pist should be neutered. She says so “his gun doesn’t have any more bullets”. She means his co.ck can’t shoot a load. It really irritates me to hear her talk that way. I’ve been treating her rougher in bed and I’m just going to drag her into the bedroom, strip her na.ked and ra.pe her. I think that’s what she needs. It’s what they all need and want.

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