I doubt that you even liked this way i made it up to you. Its not enough, i know. Do you think i need to just focus on my life and get therapy? This is so draining and depressing and i feel like its not helping either of us. I really do care about you. The way you talk about me hurts me, but i understand you just do it because how hurt you are and im crying so many tears over it. I cant stand to see you in so much pain. And knowing that i caused it makes it so much worse. I thought maybe i could take small steps towards fixing things but it seems to just make you hate me more. And thats ok. You are not obligated to help me or to like me. But please, let me know if this is what you want. I will be ok. You helped me enough. I made progress you might not have seen. I have a support system, im becoming more stable, and i will find a therapist and take better care of myself. I will not forget what you taught me and you really did help me. I never wanted for things to get this out of hand.
