(LONG) We talk about his confession each time we are alone but I just wanna be able to talk about it now. I’m so impatient. It’s just difficult. No one knows and no one can know so finding alone time is important.
He has confirmed how he feels, he has elaborated on why and how long he’s felt that way but I just need 6-7 hours of alone time so I can jump his bones and talk to him about the fact that he loves me even if I think I might not love him back.
Which doesn’t mean I don’t want him. I’m not sure what I want. I know he would be good for me, but there are so many factors that worry me.
Our age gap for example. Totally legal but I’m older and it makes me feel weird
The amount of mutual friends we have?? All of which have asked me in the past if we had ever fucked and I always told them ‘never we’re just good friends’
The fact that he is so different from the type of guy I normally want
F****** hell it’s everything. It’s the age, the friends, I’m worried.
F***.
Why does he have to love me?? Why couldn’t he just love me in a friendship way
Am I awful for not loving him back?? I like him but I can’t string the words together
I think I’m in love with you
The seven words that have changed my whole life.