I am only 13 years old and suffer from depression but I don’t take my medication because I feel the same when I’m on it When I was in Nashville like 2 weeks ago we were on the highest floor in the hotel. So it was night and like everyone was asleep but I just couldn’t sleep and everything was so quiet so I turned on music once I turned on music I started crying and then everything got too loud so I turned it off again and then It was alone with my thoughts. I briefly thought about making myself bleed like before but I just wanted everything to end. I just kept thinking it could all be over. I was sleeping by this big window and I just turned over and close my eyes and it felt like I was falling all the way down from the tenth floor. When I opened my eyes I was crying again and everything came back.